Last night, I spent a good hour sitting on some of the heavy comments that people left regarding my last post. I couldn’t sleep and as I tossed and turned with a heavy heart, I realized that many of you believe I extract a level of perfectionism on the blog. I was actually quite surprised to hear that most of you think I don’t struggle with the same demons as everyone else. Well if that is the case, I have to apologize for sending those false messages because I 100% DO struggle all of the time.
What many of you may not realize is that my struggles are just as deep, painful and difficult as yours. I know I am not the ideal image of health, nor do I ever want to have those hefty shoes to fill. The one thing I will always strive to make clear is that every single action I take and every single choice I make is completely based on my own personal needs, beliefs and convictions. To be honest, I’ve been dealing with some pretty difficult things right now and I realize them and I am working on them. You see, we ALL have our troubles and we ALL struggle with something. It’s not whether or not we have battles to face, it’s how we choose to fight them that makes us who we are.
Not that I am really into pre-teen pop music, but there is one song by Miranda Cosgrove that resonates with me every time and I hear it and I think the lyrics are so fitting to explain how I feel right now.
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful
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Okay, enough of the heavy stuff, let’s move on.
Today I was feeling back to my normal happy self. It was actually the first break in a sequence of beautiful sunny days that we experienced a miserable rainy day but that didn’t seem to effect my outlook.
I can never go wrong with this combo. These organic raspberries were on sale and tasted amazing which I found slightly odd because I thought berry season was on the out. They selection of organic berries is sad but what is worse is the price. Say goodbye to summer people and expect to see a lot more apples, pumpkin and bananas.
On the bright side, citrus is still good and I don’t usually buy organic citrus so it’s much cheaper. My rule of thumb is if I eat the skin or peel, I try to buy organic.
A similar salad from yesterday with a few modifications. Today, I added kale, tomatoes and hummus and had my roasted veggies on the side.
Roasted Acorn Squash and Brussels Sprouts are in fact in season right now, thank God!
The ketchup was an obvious addition.
I had a long afternoon of back-to-back meetings and during the commute, I stopped for that Pumpkin Soy Misto that I neglected yesterday. I also grabbed some grapes to get me through the rest of the day.
I got home late again tonight and even though I threw some ideas of what I could make quick for dinner, my stomach and mind craved one thing.
No not cereal but a close second.
For one second, I thought, maybe I should’t make oatmeal after the whole controversy of my cereal confession with emotional eating last night but then I said, “screw that” I want oatmeal and oatmeal wants me.
No emotions other than pure contentment went into the making of this bowl.
So I am here to tell you that I am not perfect. I’m not even close and you know what, I am 100% okay with that. I know I can always be better and I will always try to be better but I will never try to reach for perfectionism. One thing I’ve learned is that amazing things happen when you give up on being perfect and begin the work of becoming yourself.