Perfectly Imperfect

by Lauren on October 12, 2011

Last night, I spent a good hour sitting on some of the heavy comments that people left regarding my last post. I couldn’t sleep and as I tossed and turned with a heavy heart, I realized that many of you believe I extract a level of perfectionism on the blog.  I was actually quite surprised to hear that most of you think I don’t struggle with the same demons as everyone else.  Well if that is the case, I have to apologize for sending those false messages because I 100% DO struggle all of the time.

What many of you may not realize is that my struggles are just as deep, painful and difficult as yours.  I know I am not the ideal image of health, nor do I ever want to have those hefty shoes to fill.  The one thing I will always strive to make clear is that every single action I take and every single choice I make is completely based on my own personal needs, beliefs and convictions. To be honest, I’ve been dealing with some pretty difficult things right now and I realize them and I am working on them.  You see, we ALL have our troubles and we ALL struggle with something.  It’s not whether or not we have battles to face, it’s how we choose to fight them that makes us who we are.

Not that I am really into pre-teen pop music, but there is one song by Miranda Cosgrove that resonates with me every time and I hear it and I think the lyrics are so fitting to explain how I feel right now.

Who says 

Who says you’re not perfect

Who says you’re not worth it

Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting

Trust me

That’s the price of beauty

Who says you’re not pretty

Who says you’re not beautiful

Who says

Read more: MIRANDA COSGROVE – WHO SAYS LYRICS http://www.metrolyrics.com/who-says-lyrics-miranda-cosgrove.html#ixzz1ac9ApSSM 
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Okay, enough of the heavy stuff, let’s move on.

Today I was feeling back to my normal happy self.  It was actually the first break in a sequence of beautiful sunny days that we experienced a miserable rainy day but that didn’t seem to effect my outlook.

Breakfast

1/4 C Kashi Cinnamon Harvest, Vanilla Chobani, Raspberries, Banana, Almond Butter, Granola, Chia

I can never go wrong with this combo.  These organic raspberries were on sale and tasted amazing which I found slightly odd because I thought berry season was on the out.  They selection of organic berries is sad but what is worse is the price.  Say goodbye to summer people and expect to see a lot more apples, pumpkin and bananas.

On the bright side, citrus is still good and I don’t usually buy organic citrus so it’s much cheaper.  My rule of thumb is if I eat the skin or peel, I try to buy organic.

Lunch

A similar salad from yesterday with a few modifications. Today, I added kale, tomatoes and hummus and had my roasted veggies on the side.

Roasted Acorn Squash and Brussels Sprouts are in fact in season right now, thank God!

The ketchup was an obvious addition.

I had a long afternoon of back-to-back meetings and during the commute, I stopped for that Pumpkin Soy Misto that I neglected yesterday.  I also grabbed some grapes to get me through the rest of the day.

I got home late again tonight and even though I threw some ideas of what I could make quick for dinner, my stomach and mind craved one thing.

No not cereal but a close second.

Pumpkin Oatmeal

For one second, I thought, maybe I should’t make oatmeal after the whole controversy of my cereal confession with emotional eating last night but then I said, “screw that” I want oatmeal and oatmeal wants me.

No emotions other than pure contentment went into the making of this bowl.

So I am here to tell you that I am not perfect.  I’m not even close and you know what, I am 100% okay with that.  I know I can always be better and I will always try to be better but I will never try to reach for perfectionism.  One thing I’ve learned is that amazing things happen when you give up on being perfect and begin the work of becoming yourself.

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{ 17 comments }

kathleen @ the daily crumb October 12, 2011 at 8:21 pm

i love this post and your honesty. i wrote this morning about how we all face demons and issues in our own lives… some shown on these blogs we read, and some not. it’s important to remember everyone struggles and is fighting their own battles… whether they show it or not.

on a lighter note, your food looks delicious!!

Lauren October 12, 2011 at 8:26 pm

Aww, thanks Kathleen! It sounds like we were on the same page today. Thanks so much for being so supportive.

RunEatRepeat October 12, 2011 at 8:23 pm

I <3 you.

Lauren October 12, 2011 at 8:27 pm

I <3 you more!

Lauren @ What Lauren Likes October 12, 2011 at 8:31 pm

Those roasted veggies look great! :)

Erica October 12, 2011 at 8:32 pm

Why are people cruel? Bahhhhhh- much love to you. Yay for the misto and brussels! I need to pick some brussels up- your look HUGE! Glad you had what you wanted for dinner

Tia October 12, 2011 at 10:39 pm

Yay someone else who loves brussels!! Every single person I know hates them!

I love how you can defend yourself in like .. the classiest way possible. If that even makes sense. <3

Clare @ Fitting It All In October 12, 2011 at 11:35 pm

<3 you. sorry i couldn't answer today – i was at work. let's chat soon

Laura October 13, 2011 at 12:11 am

I love that song – but it’s Selena Gomez!

Lauren October 13, 2011 at 6:47 pm

Opps, you are right!! haha, I always get them mixed up. ;)

Jen@foodfamilyfitness October 13, 2011 at 6:37 am

I love that song, it’s one of my favorites!!!
I love your honesty and I love your meals!! Keep being you :) xoxo

Erica @ For the Sake of Cake October 13, 2011 at 7:13 am

I noticed some of those comments yesterday. I swear some people are just looking for reasons to give another person a hard time about things. I definitely don’t think you try give off the “I’m perfect” vibe on your blog — not at all!

Tia October 13, 2011 at 10:29 am

I totally agree, one persons idea of a problem might not be another persons idea of a problem, it does’t make it any less valid, its your life and you and only you know the struggles you face. While Lauren does come off as very together and organized, she clearly puts a LOT of effort into that.

Pamela October 13, 2011 at 11:57 pm

Oh my goodness. Soy Mistos are my favorite drink from Starbucks. I never thought to ask for pumpkin!! I might have to go and try that in the morning! :)

Allie@LiveLaughEat October 14, 2011 at 9:43 am

I still need to get my first pumpkin spice drink of the season! Thanks for the reminder.

Tiff @ Love Sweat and Beers October 14, 2011 at 11:30 am

Can I come steal your lunch???

Lovely post :)

glidingcalm October 15, 2011 at 12:10 pm

mmmmmmmmmmmm roasted veggies!!!

i have been loving on grapes recently as well!! ive been getting some amazing batches!!

and i agree. we all struggle with our own issues, and to make assumptions about people and judge on what one shows externally is definitely not always accurate. Hugs for a beautiful post.

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