So here is a post that I’ve avoided writing for a few weeks, but I figured that people were starting to catch on and even asking so now is as good a time as any to come clean.
I’ve been running again. Everyday.
And you know what, I’m not sorry about it. A few months ago, I wrote about my “breakup” with running after realizing I was having some female issues and thought that running may have been a cause. I must stress that the doctors NEVER indicated that they believed this, it was all from my own assumptions and hearing from other’s similar experiences.
So I took a significant cut from my mileage to see if it would make any difference. It didn’t and I proceeded to work with doctor’s on my condition. After many stressful months, I realized that I am just not ready to give it up. Part of me was fighting it which is why I now know I wasn’t ready. I fully believe that when I am ready to let go, it will not be hard. I don’t want to fight for something that I truly don’t want at this point in my life and it took a whole lot of self exploring to figure that out.
I love my morning runs every day at 4am and I know that some may think it’s disordered or nuts, and I don’t blame you for thinking that, but for me, it’s just something that makes me happy. So I guess what I’m saying is I’m sorry that I’m not sorry. Right now, this is where I am at. Maybe tomorrow I will feel differently, maybe next week or maybe in a few years, but for now, I’m truly attempting to live in the moment. If I’ve learned one thing this past year it’s that life can change moment by moment and it seems to be for me anyways.
No matter what happens I know that I’m happy, I’m healthy, I’m blessed, and I’m loved.
Well now that I have that off my chest….
I finished my Kashi H2H so this past weekend, I picked up a new cereal. Barbara’s Shredded Multigrain Spoonfuls are now my new favorite cereal.
I poured a bowl this morning and added sliced banana and blackberries along with almonds and almond butter. As a kid, I was a HUGE fan of Chex Cereal and this reminds me a lot of those sweet little checks. It’s only 5g of sugar per serving but tastes slightly sweet. I loved them!
I was in meetings all morning and before heading back into the office for the afternoon, I stopped at Cornerstone to meet my friend for lunch.
Sadly, I wasn’t feeling all that great. My stomach was sort of in knots all morning but I knew I should eat something.
This smoothie is actually called the “Get Up and Go” smoothie, hence the name on the cup. Kale, Almond Milk, Banana and Pear.
I also got a side order of veggies and hummus for something to chew.
The rest of work wasn’t anything exciting and when I got off, I rushed to an appointment that ran well into the evening.
By the time I got home, I just wanted to put something fast and easy for dinner.
No Bull Burger with hummus and avocado with a side salad and watermelon.
I’m not sure if it’s because I haven’t had an actual burger (bun, fixings, etc.) in a really long time, but this was just delicious! I’ve tried the No Bull Burgers a few times now and this is by far my favorite way of eating them…the most conventional.
Well it’s time to watch my boy Phil become the next American Idol. Sorry Jessica fans, but after last night’s performance, I think that boy just stole every girl’s heart.